Well, it's been a long time and a lot has happened since my last post. For one, I am now a lawyer! Yeah, one would think that was a great thing; however, it's been far from that. There is no money coming in and now I am at my deadline and totally confused about what to do. On the one hand, I've taught for the past 6 years and I thoroughly enjoy what I do. Plus the job comes with a set salary and great benefits. On the other hand, being a lawyer has been what I wanted to do since I was old enough to talk (but the dream involved making enough money to live a comfortable life). This summer has taught me that not all clients are paying clients; matter of fact, 90% of them don't pay. Hence my dilemma!
I cannot afford to hope that I get paid enough to pay the bills for the month. I cannot afford to hope that a client shows up with a check in hand (which I have found does not mean that it's good). I cannot afford to be without financial stability. But I also cannot afford to not trust God! So now the question is one of faith. Do I take a leap of faith and know that God will not fail me? My answer is yes, but like all things in my life . . . it's easier said than done.
So tomorrow I take my letter of resignation to my principal. Am I scared? Shitless!! I have put this off for as long as I can though. Change is something that does not come easy to me (does it come easy to anyone?). Tomorrow I become an adult (at age 33)! Tomorrow I take the biggest leap that I've taken my whole life (aside from marriage). A leap that has no certainties, no guarantees, and no promises!
To be continued . . .
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